THE THING WITH 3 Ts

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turning less shitty

dude, never underestimate parents.. they knew way more than i thought, even though i was careful to never cry at home or like, show angryness or anything. they're amazing

baby me <3

SHIT

facts:
in the past months i lost about 13 pounds
i haven't have a proper night of sleep since last october (except for half of january cause my doc gave my sleeping pills then)
i lost the willing to do anything, and i used to be the most active and enthusiastic person i knew
nothing gives me the pleasure it used to (not even dancing)
i experience sadness angryness and anxiety 90% more than EVER before
i cry for no reason about 3 or 4 times a week
i feel guilty for EVERYTHING, ALL THE TIME
i can't concentrate, i can't remember things, my hole body aches, i have headaches, and i'm exhausted!
my social life went pretty much to hell


how do you tell your loving parents that you have probably been under depression for about 4 months when you know they have their own shit to deal with -a LOT- and you know they' ll feel guilt as fuck for not noticing completely even though is not their fault cause you'be been hiding it awesomely well?
i realised lately i probably need to go to a psichologist though, so i need to tell them.. i just don't know how to.

It gives me chills...

...to think if i would've been born 33 years before, and did social working as i do now, i'd probably be dead or "dissapeared".

Today is a sad day to remember in argentina. 33 years ago we were falling to our darkest period with a military dictatorship that tortured, kidnapped, killed and/or dissapeared everybody who might threathen their power, or anyone who knew or was family with any of the previous, or just anyone who decided to do social working or be a priest that cared about poor people. the army litterally watched the streets, things such as freedom of expression or thinking didn't exist and people barely knew what was happening and fear was something you couldn't run away even for one day.
Today the hole country cries the dissapearing of more than 30 000 people. they'll never be forgotten.

Favorite lyrics (part 1)

When you wake up the world will come around. (Lullaby - Fall Out Boy)

I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs, but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me. (The Shipped Gold Standard - Fall Out Boy)

Forever allways seems to be around when things begin but forever never seems to be around when things end. (Forever - Ben Harper)

You gave me nothing now it’s all I’ve got. (One - U2)

I want to trip inside your head, spend the day there. (+) Freedom has a scent, like the top of a new born baby’s head. (Miracle Drug - U2)

I just found out theres no such thing as the real world, just a lie youve got to rise above. (No Such Thing - John Mayer)

Through playful lips made of yarn, that fragile Capricorn unraveled words like moths upon old scarves. I know the worlds a broken bone, but melt your headaches, call it home. (Northern Downpour - Panic At The Disco)

Eyes closed for lives to open up. Free fall with me to open up. (Spit The Dark - Empires)

You go to my head and you linger like a haunting refrain. And I find you spinning 'round in my brain like the bubbles in a glass of champagne. (You Go To My Head - Haven Gillespie)

In My Life

Starting college on monday.. really gonna hate waking up at 5.30 am. the rest, not so much.